Given the "Okay"

About a month ago, I was having so much anxiety. The pressure of deadlines looming without any ideas is one of the most helpless feeling an artist can have. You begin to doubt everything.

THANKFULLY, I'm now on the other side. I just got word from the freelance boss that he loves the look. . . and even better, so do I! I still have more design to do, but it will all be based on what I just did. So I'm feeling ready to conquer this project, get my money, and go on vacation in June. WHOO HOO! Time to kick it in high gear!

A grandbaby for tlc

My partner at work is a grandma! Last week her son and his girlfriend had a sweet little boy that I cannot wait to see photos of. I keep telling her to take a break from giving facials, massages and back acne treatments to download some pictures, but she hasn't yet. She promised me some today. It's been almost a week. You'd think I would have seen some by now!!

I'm counting this as a success

My mom told me that Ivy was watching cartoons at her house the other day. After a few episodes (which may or may not have included a noxycut ad), Ivy stood up and told my mom, "Whew! Mema, that is enough t.v! I need to draw or something!" I'd like to think that must have something to do with homeschool art, don't ya think?

Gum

I'm not sure what I would do without gum to keep me alert at work. Some people have coffee. I chew. I've been loving these new fruit flavors from Extra lately. Berry Smoothie, Strawberry Banana, Sweet Watermelon. Mmmmm! So good.

YUM

You can't see the image very well, but this is a Lindt chocolate bar with chili. This is the only candy bar I have bought for myself since buying one in January. Delish. Can't really even tell you how good it is.

Tonight Chris came home from Target and had brought one home for me. Sweet.

Seeing my own doctor

or her assistant. This infection isn't resolving and I'd like to find out what is going on. I've put off going back to the e.r. so I can see my doctor tomorrow. It's taken about all of my will to not call her at home and I'm proud that I haven't. But let me tell ya, tomorrow coming closer has me very happy at this point!

I'm one day closer

to being done with taking the kids to basketball on Tuesday and Thursday nights. Right about this time in the season, I seriously think about taking them out. They wouldnt know the difference and I just dread getting them ready, being there and then getting them home. I'd so much rather be doing blackhead removal on myself than being driver for those 2. But,
Regardless, I'm one day closer. :)

New Pants

The other day I went to Dillard's because I had a little bit left on a gift card from Christmas, and I desperately needed some new pants for work. It was a reward of sorts for dropping a size. My old work pants weren't fitting as well and were never that comfortable. I was also looking for something that was more in the business casual classification. I only own business or casual—nothing in between.

So I was a little annoyed because I couldn't find my gift card. However I went ahead and looked. And I found 2 pair of khakis (one dark brown, one tan) that were my new size, petite length, AND on sale for—get this—$9 a piece! Whooo hooo!

I've been wearing them for a week, and I'm loving them. They aren't necessarily the most stylish with the waist line hitting me above my belly button, but they are comfortable and go with all my tops. (And it is much better than showing my butt crack when I sit down!) Plus I have a pair of business casual shoes that work perfect with the pants. They are basically sneakers but they look nicer. With these, I can go for walks at lunch.

AND one final thing, I washed and dried them and they didn't shrink. Perfect. Maybe now I won't be depressed when Casual Friday is canceled due to a client visit. I have something almost as good at jeans. :)

When things get easier

This year for Easter, things have went smoothly. When Chris and I were first together and new parents, any holiday was cause for a huge fight that would last before and after the actual day. for awhile there, I thought that this would never change.

But here and there, there were signs of improvement. Like slowly waiting for acne body wash to improve your appearance. And today was a sure sign of pure happiness in our family. I think that he has gotten to the point of letting go of the house and of being the "host" when my family comes over. He can be himself, let our house be like it is on any other day and just sit back and enjoy the company without having to stress about things being perfect. It makes all of our lives so much easier.

And I've learned to let go of his behaviour. Just let him do what he needs to to feel comfortable and in control, while going on with my own business. Maybe this is what it is all about

Happiness is...

being parents again!  We got the call on Thursday that we were selected to be the parents for Maria age 7 and Alex age 5.  They are bi-racial and beautiful!!!!  We go on Friday the 9th for our initial meeting with the social workers, foster parents and specialists.  We will from there set up 3 or 4 visits with the kiddos and hopefully bring them home the beginning of June.  We will post pics as soon as we can.  YAY!!!!

Saw my nana today

and she looked amazing! She was sitting up and talking. I brushed her hair, pulled it back out of her face. She told me that I had to use the hard brush because she has a hard head! I told her that she needed a headband. She then asked if it would be an Indian headband! I told her no, a headband like Ivy wears. And lo and behold, Miss Ivy walked in with a bunny headband on! When I left her to rest, she was wearing bunny ears. What a great visit. And I got photos :) Check my facebook for the evidence.